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Name: Susie
Gender: Female
Interests: God...hanging with my friends...hanging with my friends...Mock Trial...<33333...any other classes...Horses...PENGUINS...Wolves...the North Pole:p
Expertise: Being a dork, being obsessed with everything, including my friends' well being, being blonde, laughing over the stupidest things, praying to God for wisdom on everything in my life...Working on becoming a phycologist...not know how to SPELL pcycologist...
Occupation: Student
Industry: uhhhhhh..........
Message: message me
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AIM:  imapanhead217
MSN: wanna_hold_on_and_feel_i_belong@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  GiRl_4_GoD217
Member Since:
5/30/2006
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| Hey guys --
So, I just wanted to let everyone know that I got a new Blog where I'm posting all of my thoughts and stuff. It's http://elyonsstrength314.blogspot.com/. The nice thing about it is that you don't have to be a member to read and leave comments and stuff :) lol. I'm not here as much, and it's just a hassle to do it on Facebook. So, I now have a Blogspot. I'm going to start working on transferring everything from my Facebook and here to there.
Hope to see you all there! love you all!
~Nickie
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| Step one, you say we need to talk
He walks,
you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right,
As he goes left and you stay right,
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Who Knew - Pink
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me
You'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
'Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew?
Remember when
We were such fools
And so convinced
And just too cool
Oh no,
No no.
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew?
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened?
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My Darling
Who Knew
Who knew...
Who knew???
Will the pain ever stop? What if the only way to peace is through ultimate pain? Why? Why do these things keep happening? Just when I think that I'm getting better...I can't believe it. I just can't believe it...
WHY????????
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| hahahahahahahaha, hey guys!! I'm back on Xanga!! *gasp*. lol. I'll mostly be using it as a channel for my Facebook (so for those of you who aren't my friend on there, it's Nee-ki Smolley), because the notes app on Facebook is kinda dumb! so..yeah!! lol. For updates and stuff like that..go to my Facebook!!
ANYWAY! I have another rambling to post, so here we go! This one I entitled "If My People Called By My Name"...so, here we go!!
If My People Called By My Name..
a.k.a, prayer!
I stinkin LOVE Casting Crowns. Love them. We share a lot of soap boxes, only they choose to sing about them rather than just write about them. If I could sing, I would too. Anyway, they sing about some pretty controversial topics, and I like that. It's something fresh. Something other than the stupid "Baby I love you, please don't leave me, I'll die without you" crap that gets produced every day (granted they are a Christian band, but still..you get my point). There's only so many ways to say the same thing over and over and over until you're...well, saying the same thing over and over and over!
Anyway, "What If His People Prayed" is one of my favorite (if you can say that) Casting Crowns songs. Lyrics!
What If His People Prayed - Casting Crowns
"What if the armies of the Lord
Picked up and dusted off their swords?
Vowed to set the captives free?
And not let Satan have one more?
What if the church for heaven's sake
Finally stepped up to the plate?
Took and stand upon God's promise
And stormed hell's rusty gates?!
What if His people prayed?
And those who bear His name
Would humbly seek His face?
And turn from their own way
And what would happen if we prayed
For those raised up to lead the way?
Then maybe kids in school could pray
And unborn children see light of day
What if the life that we pursue
Came from a hunger for the truth?
What if the family turned to Jesus
Stopped asking Oprah what to do!
What if His people prayed?
And those who bear His name
Would humbly seek His face?
And turn from their own way
He said that they would hear
His promise has been made
He’s answered loud and clear, Yeah
If only we would pray
If My people called by My name..
If they'll humble themselves and pray..
If My people called by My name..
If they'll humble themselves and pray..
What if His people prayed?
And those who bear His name
Would humbly seek His face, Yeah?
And turn from their own way
He said that they would hear
His promise has been made
He’s answered loud and clear, Yeah
If only we would pray
What if His people prayed??"
SO! This is something I've been recently convicted of myself. What if we (Christians) stopped just acknowledging whats wrong in the world and did something? What if 50 Christians gathered every day..or even every week and prayed for one topic (btw, 50 Christians is roughly the equivalant to both House Party's and D-Group)? Imagine the changes that would happen. In Darfur. In Iraq. In the US. In our elections. In our states. In our towns. In our neighborhoods, in our families. In ourselves. Imagine the crime rates. Imagine the teen pregnancy and suicide rates. All of that can make a complete turnaround by something simple - prayer.
'Cause think about it, prayer shouldn't be that difficult, right? All it really is is talking to God. I mean, come on, my math is harder than that.
But then why is it so hard?
I'm no prayer warrior, trust me. 99% of what I write to you guys is something either I have or am currently struggling with. Prayer is actually where I'm weakest in terms of my faith. Part of it is my pride. Part of it is I'm finally learning how.
Some people hype up prayer to be this big mystical thing and that there's a certain way to pray, and only that way is the right way, otherwise God won't accept your prayer. There must be Thee's and Thou's and Thine's and He must be addressed as "Oh Sovereign Lord", but never anything personal.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that any of that is a bad thing..but prayer is not a set of Do's and Don'ts that you have to follow. It's not this big mystical thing that at any moment could have you doing some outlandish, wild thing. It's a form of communication to our Heavenly Father. I think Nancy actually described it best 3 weeks ago when she was talking to the kids in RealKids about prayer. She illustrated it as talking to her Best Friend. How do you talk to your best friend? I was just like...wow. That's good.
Personally, I've started calling Him "Daddy" and "Elyon" because He is my Daddy and Elyon comes from a Ted Dekker book where Daddy was made very real to me. I guess Daddy kinda does too. And I talk to Daddy just like I would talk to Sam or Carrie or Tami or Kelly..because He is my best friend. And I can be myself around my best friends... or any of my friends for that matter.
So...yes. That's my tirade on prayer..if you have any questions, message me, call me...instant message me...I'm pretty much an open book :)
~Nickie
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| Hey all, what's up? I'm doing okay..I'm so totally exhasted, but the memories are all worth it! Steve, Julie and Benjamin came and stayed the week with us, and it was alot of fun! Late nights...early mornings..Spanish finals..snow storms..Christmas gift exchange...wierd dreams..what more could you ask for??? ahahaahahaa...
So, I've been thinking alot recently. Just really looking back over the past year. These last few months and January will be/have been alot of one year marks for me. Some of them have been fun. Others, not so much, a few have been even painful. Needless to say, I'm ready for 2008. Bring it on! I really haven't enjoyed 2007. It had it's beautiful moments, but there was alot of pain...
My song for the new year is Welcome Home - Shaun Groves. It's old, but amazing. I cried when I heard it a couple of weeks ago...
Enjoy!
Take me, make me
All You want me to be
That's all I'm asking, all I'm asking
Welcome to this heart of mine
I've buried under prideful vines
Grown to hide the mess I've made
Inside of me
Come decorate, Lord
Open up the creaking door
And walk upon the dusty floor
Scrape away the guilty stains
Until no sin or shame remain
Spread Your love upon the walls
And occupy the empty halls
Until the man I am has faded
No more doors are barricaded
Come inside this heart of mine
It's not my own
Make it home
Come and take this heart and make it
All Your own
Welcome home
Take a seat, pull up a chair
Forgive me for the disrepair
And the souvenirs from floor to ceiling
Gathered on my search for meaning
Every closet's filled with clutter
Messes yet to be discovered
I'm overwhelmed, I understand
I can't make this place all that You can
Come inside this heart of mine
It's not my own
Make it home
Come and take this heart and make it
All Your own
Welcome home
I took this space that You placed in me
Redecorated in shades of greed
And I made sure every door stayed locked
Every window blocked, and still You knocked
Come inside this heart of mine
It's not my own
Make it home
Come and take this heart and make it
All Your own
Welcome home
Take me, make me
All You want me to be
That's all I'm asking, all I'm asking
Yes..an amazing song...I love it alot alot!
Had the kids Christmas musical today at church. I've been helping Dianne with it, and I now have a MUCH MUCH deeper understanding and respect and appreciation for Mrs. Flatland (not that I didn't already). I had one kid tell me that I could direct a play...I was like "Umm..no!". You try getting 60 1-5 graders to shut up and pay attention...holy crap! I LOVE YOU MRS. FLATLAND!!!!!
Alright my dear friends..my time on the computadora is done! Breanna now wants on here and I'm downloading Albi...ahahahahaha...leave me comments! What's with people not leaving me any comments????????
Gosh!
Love you all!
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| WOO..got that song stuck in my head! It's not even funny! lol.
How's everyone? I'm doing FABULOSO! lol..so, my mom told me to get on here and update, so, I am! You know it's sad when my mother dearest is telling me to update..oh well!
The play went amazing! Had a couple of trip-ups, but hey, what can I say? it was amazing.
was sick last week. Bree got sick during the play, and then Mom's been sick.
Last night was the cast party, which was so cool! After the Co-op, we all caravaned over to Carrie's house (us girls, that is, lol), and chilled over there...it was a good time! Bree and I had to leave at 11 because of this ridiculus ice storm. ugh! it bugs me.
over it!
so...yes..that has been my past monthish in a nut shell. I ended up quitting my job for various reasons...but it's all good:)
Tomorrow, I'm going to go to Sundown with the Langs, Churchs, Maloneys, Shelby Hofmaster (?), and a few other people. I'm pumped! Never snow boarded in my LIFE! But, I'm pumped! lol.
okay..well, I must be off..I need to sleep!
Farewell! Leave me comments!
Love you all!
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